At a certain time every night, my senses get heightened. I would suddenly feel extremely sensitive towards my surroundings. Tonight, there is the faint smell of jergens ultra healing moisturiser on my hands, the cool breeze from outside gushing into my humid room, hearing my mum humming As the Deer as she irons outside...

These make me feel alive. And thankful to be alive, to be sitting right here in the comfort of my home typing all these.

Many times I took many people and things for granted. Especially God. Simply left Him out of my life. And only in times of trials and tribulations and trauma; the instant when things go wrong that I call out for help in desperation. Yesterday was one of them. Yet He is forgiving and merciful.

The thought of what happened yesterday still leaves me with a sick feeling in the stomach. I wonder for how long will this linger. But it serves as a good reminder to cherish life; to appreciate everyone and everything around me; to continue holding on to the Lord's hand cos He has never let mine go.


-yesterday, being there for you, being strong for you made me realise how much i need you too-