Our world is a selfish world. And that's quite a sad thing isn't it. Tell me now, which human being isn't selfish at all. But of cos i know of people who are also rather selfless. However that only accounts a minority.

At work, you slog like a worm. Sometimes you comfort yourself that it's okay. Giving in that extra amount of time and hardwork is worth it, even though you know that at the end of the day you won't get anything in return. But if you really think about it, in which sense of the word is it worth it at all? For friendship? Or you are just being plain nice? You'd just feel more drained and exhausted and cranky. Then you gotta think, what is it you expect to get in return? Is it that extra cash? Recognition from your superiors?

No lah, i'm not about to quit my work yet. I still need that extra $$$. Sigh.

I'm wayyyyy beyond tired and exhausted. I'm cranky. I swear the veins on my legs are popping.

Some times I feel that I don't know myself well enough. My thoughts and feelings seem to dangle and swing to and fro like a pendulum. Which is not good. I don't like it that nowadays i feel so unsure about certain things. My aloofness and nonchalance have always helped me tackle such feelings whereby i just go with the flow and not let anything affect me. But i think it has now backfired alittle. I don't know what to feel anymore.

Perhaps im just sleepy. I'll be better tmr, i promise.