It's mid-semester break this week. Wowwheeeee. It felt as if school barely started, and it's the holidays again. But it's not gonna be much of a break. Gotta rush projects and school reopens this friday. Like wth.

Sometimes, i know my instincts about a person are right on first/second impression. I try not to be too judgemental, tell myself to look at things in a different perspective, give this friendship a chance. But in the end, my instincts never betray me.

As humans, we are bound to err in some way or another. I am no exception, and in no position to judge. However i feel that certain things, whereby it compels you to make a rational decision, would somehow make you even more clear-headed to make that decision rather than to do something stupid. Which brings me to another point, the ability or lack of, to control one's emotions and act in a rational way. In this aspect, we all fail terribly.

So perhaps, we are all destined, to make that one stupid move, to learn from it, and to move on. I believe in giving second chances.

In times of weakness, I always believe that i should behave stronger than that. It's not about putting up a strong front, it's about reverse psychology. In situations whereby no one else can help, and you are all by yourself, that's when you gotta be even stronger. There would be times you yearn for that affection and attention which you lack, and you'd seek all means to get it. But don't ever resort to doing stupid things, which would affect others around you directly or indirectly. In other words, don't be a selfish ass.

Don't blame others or complain that you are being treated with indifference because of your stupid moves. Thing is , you had a choice to avoid it but you chose to go on with it.

There, I have ranted enough.

Anyway, today's project meeting is cancelled. I love staying at home! I'm so lazy to even lift a finger to do anything else but to lie in bed all day and drift in and out of sleep.