I have put on too many strong fronts that it seems impossible for me to shed them off now. I wish i can explain my actions, like saying something which i don't really mean and doing something which i don't really intend to. I don't know why i'm hurting so much either. Everything's like fuzzy, i cannot point a finger at the exact spot of what's going on in my head.

My mum told me something rather startling the previous night. She thinks that i may be going through depression. I was like, wth, i'm totally fine. Giving more thought to it, perhaps i am, but i don't know that i'm suffering from it. And that's scary. I can just lie in bed all day long, drifting in and out of sleep. I'd binge on food. I lie on the sofa the whole day watching crappy tv. I feel really lousy when i'm not even pmsing. Are these signs?

Whatever that's bugging me, i hope it goes away soon. All these monsters in my head, i wish they'd disappear somehow.