I have like one thousand and one different thoughts running through my mind, and another one thousand and one different emotions that i'm feeling.

The feelings that i go through during PMS amazes me. I can feel joyful, upset, angry, moody, cranky, wacky ALL AT THE SAME TIME! Isn't that amazing? But it's also very very uneccessary. I'm like one big emotional wreck today. It's so frustrating and the worst thing is i cannot suppress such feelings. Ahhh. The woes of womanhood. But it's alright. I'm sure everyone has been through such nonsense at any point in their lives, even guys. So, i'm not alone :)

Stayed over at rachel's place last night together with josiah. We had a baking spree! Quiche, cookies and blueberry lemon cheesecake. slurps. Played monopoly and The Game of Life till late. I'm really a big time loser. I lost for both games, dammit. Bankrupt for monopoly. Rachel built a hotel at Trafalgar Square, and i sway sway of all places had to land there. I don't even have enough money to pay her even if i sold off all my property. DANG. Game of Life was slightly better. Just keep collecting money along the way, but i still lost to the both of them in the end.

I feel very sad when i see old ppl serving in fast food restaurants, cleaning toilets, sweeping the streets, go around collecting empty drink cans and discarded cardboard pieces, clearing tables at food centres. I wonder to myself, do they have families who care for them? Do they have children who love and care for them? Despite their old age, are they still in the workforce because they choose to, or they are compelled to? If circumstance compels them to, is it because they are childless, or do their children neglect them? Isn't it so sad if it is due to the latter? I don't understand why some people think that their aged parents are a hassle and neglect them. I love my grandmother alot. She's the most wonderful woman in my life, besides my mother. She so willingly helps to upkeep our home, cooking and washing. Without her, i think my house would be a pig sty. She does what she does cos she loves us unconditionally. I'm soooo thankful for her.



If right now, I'm given one wish, I'd wish for happiness for you, my dear friend. It really pains me to see you this way. I can never say that i totally understand what you are going through, but i try my best to, and i feel upset that you are upset, that you've never been truely happy for the longest time these few weeks. I'll give you my fullest support in your decisions. I can only advise u this much, i cannot tell you exactly what to do, i don't know exactly what the best thing for you to do. But i hope the best for you, and hope you'd turn out fine in the end. I know you will. I love you much, my favourite fruit :)



I think sometimes i talk too much. I should just shut up and keep quiet.
Should just hide in my shell where it's comfy and safe.