I'm utterly terribly disgusted with myself for behaving the way i did. But i can't seem to help it. I hate myself for being like that. I'm sorry that you have to put up with this. I'm really sorry. I don't know why I have to struggle with this even until now. I'm very very disgusted with myself, very very very very very. Is there any way out of this for me? I really wasn't kidding the previous week when i said i was contemplating. And it just so happened that I got upset tonight. Such a trivial thing really, and i had to react the way i did. I wish there was a solution to this.
H-E-L-P.