i don't know why im even crying over this.
but all i know is that im hurting alot.
i don't know what caused this drift between us.
it never used to be this way. in the past even if we didn't see each other or meet up for weeks, when we do meet up again, we'd be so excited to see each other and update each other about almost everything.
but now, i feel that there are so many things left unspoken,
like you said, "it's not the right time to tell me."
since when, in this FIFTEEN years long of frenship were there any time limit as to when or what to tell each other?
to think that we call each other BEST FRIENDS.
i really don't know what went wrong.
maybe i am to be blamed for this drift. if i am, i sincerely apologize and hope that things will go back to how they were.
right now, i just know that i feel so alienated from you.
it seems like for the past month during yr exams, so many changes in you, and the saddest thing is, im yr best friend, and i don't know in detail about them.
why? is fifteen years of joy, laughter, tears and companionship reduced to this? such that u won't even wanna tell me stuffs anymore?
im really sorry if u feel that i was the one who caused this drift.
i still wanna be that friend whom u can always turn to when u need a listening ear.
i have always been there, i have never left you.
don't leave me. i still need you chel.
many friends come and go, many bfs come and go.
but you are one friend i don't ever ever wanna lose.