don't you sometimes feel so vulnerable, so small and insignificant compared to the rest of the world?
don't you wish you were able to make a stand, to let others see yr perspective and empathise with you?
don't you wish there were some sort of a big, comfortable, shield for you to seek refuge, comfort in when u feel the smallest, even tinier than an ant?
it's time like these im compelled to remember my LORD.
who gave me this life.
who gave me so many second chances.
who IS my refuge and my shield.

unpredictable.
that's life.
you never know when's the next turning point.
or is there ever a turning point? would it be forever constant?
up till now, im convinced of its unpredictability.
just when you think that everything is perfect and will go on as usual,
the big, majestic,ferris wheel with it's mechanical parts well-oiled and turning,
the next moment, a spare part becomes loose and drops out, it stops, the entired thing collapses.
despite all these, i believe that the human spirit is strong. the tiny flame in us flickers dangerously, threatening to diminish. it may even die out.
but the human spirit is strong. it will find itself again and be ignited once more.
life is unpredictable.
but life goes on.
we will emerge victorious.

i mourn with a dear friend.
i pray she'll survive this ordeal.