on a reading spree again.
u know how some books are so mind-provoking, and evokes such strong feelings within you. the way the author writes, the style of his/her writing, brings the characters and story to life. you can almost feel exactly how the character feels.
i guess reading is a way for me to escape from my reality.
ive been struggling and struggling, drowning.
some times i manage to surface for that fast gasp of fresh air.
then this whirlpool will suck me in again.

if only things didn't turn out the way it is now.
could things which went wrong been prevented somehow?

i feel so sedated, numbed. like all these mixed emotions engulfing me, changing too rapidly.
i wish i didn't have to feel so much. my mind has somehow been tuned and to prepared for the next big emotional rollercoaster.

one thing i learnt. is to never ever ever, go for another gal's boyfriend.