think im too soft-hearted or whatever u call it. gave in too easily. shld have stuck with my resolve to dig out the reason for his sickening attitude. but i was easily bought over by a yummilicious marche meal. dammit. but the pizza & waffles were absolutely mouth-watering i couldn't resist. augh. and just as i was feeling so much better i almost forgot that i had a terrible time yesterday and the day before, ANOTHER problem surfaced today. it had nothin to do with me at all but am extremely affected. if all these is affecting me too much, im afraid ive to make a decision. and FAST. it's way too mind-boggling to handle. im afraid i can't take it. i might just snap.

an ex-cj student committed suicide. it's always a shocking and sad thing for me to hear of such happenings. it makes me upset and ponder alot. why is life given to us by God taken so lightly? when we are stuck at a deadend, nowhere to go, been through a terrible ordeal or rough time do we just give up hope on life and end it just like that? i guess it depends on different circumstances. some ppl just simply snapped. lost all ability to think rationally, too overwhelmed by sadness, grief, anger, under severe depression to consider the consequences of their action, how the aftermath would affect their family and loved ones; in this case i think it can't be helped. i almost fainted today when i received an sms from someone who said he wana commit suicide. if felt angry that he even thought abt it i wana beat him up myself. even the thought of it irks me. i see the act as one of weakness, inability to face up to reality. it may be the fastest and most effective way of ending all yr problems. but it doesn't solve it. it just makes matters worst for the ones u leave behind. it's an act of selfishness.just my own thoughts, hope i didn't sound too harsh. i haven't been in such a horrible situation, horrible enough for me to wana do it. i hope this day will nvr come. i just hope everyone who's going through hard times will have supportive friends and family to keep them going on.

on a very much lighter note, we r celebrating maisie's bday this friday! yay!! it's been so long since i last met her. i can't wait to see her. am very excited for the whole gang to get together.