i thought things would be so much better at the end of the year, with my exams over and him getting out of the hell hole of NS. but it seems happiness of mine is shortlived. it's pretty much confirmed he's goin melbourne next feb to study. i didn't know how to react when he told me. just felt kinda numb. like someone just struck me on my face and i just stood ground without feeling any pain.
perhaps im reali pessimistic & i just don't like taking risks. i do not believe in long-distance relationships. yep. pretty firm about that. perhaps im also just being my practical self. i don't see how a relationship can go on strong when we are like over 30000000km away from each other. not that it can't, but it won't be as strong. we'd be so caught up with our own lives in university, getting engaged in new activities. as much as i wana keep him involved in my life as much as possible, it's just tough not to be there for each other physically. i know about all the crap about, if u reali love the person, he'd always be in your heart & the distance btween the 2 of u doesn't matter. but over this past year, ive been waiting and waiting and waiting, yearning for the weekends to come asap. it's alreadi tough now that i onli get to meet him at most twice a week, sometimes once in 2 weeks. i can't imagine how it'd be like to wait for 2 YEARS. gosh. ok, he'd come back for hols and all that. but still...

but for now, im not gona worry about that. gota get it out of my head. get over and done and over with A levels 1st. but im just afraid if he brings the issue up. for now i have no definite answer as to wad to do abt it or how to cope with it. i can onli avoid it for the next few months. and before i know it, A levels will be over, there'd hopefully be a nice & dandy december and january, and then as feb draws nearer, i wish i nvr had to face reality.