too tired to think hard. brain activity close to zero. been shifting in and out of stoning session the whole day. slept early last nite though.

i wish i was as cold as ice. i wana feel numb. i don't wana feel anything anymore. i know feelings like happiness, joy, excitement and whatever are positive & good. but i believe these feelings are not permanent. things screw up and the next moment u feel like the whole world just crumbled before you.

i wana be a simple, plain rock. or pebble. or anything non-living, particularly non-feeling.