been feeling extremely lethargic & lifeless these few days. i think im stressed. like all the stress symptoms- sickening pimples, lost of appetite, feeling depressed etc. i figured im stressed not cos the exams are drawing near but more of cos im not doing anything abt it.

im quite screwed for the econs mock test. spotted the right topics.but not enough though. am supposed to submit 3 essays but i onli managed to crap out 2 essays cos tt's the onli 2 topics i studied for. i hope mrs kuah won't despise me even more.haha. i can imagine her saying in her slow, monotonous drawl "kay-lin, why did u do onli 2 essays when u r supposed to do 3?!". screwed man...

got caught for socks today.bloody hell. im damn disgruntled with the stupid no-ankle-socks-allowed rule. i realli do not see wad's WRONG with wearing ankle socks. does it determine whether we'd be able to perform better academically depending on wad length of socks we wear? but then fine, i did break the sch rule, so i suck & i accept my punishment. but im just super annoyed with the bitch who caught me. she reali reminds me of a pig. i think i annoyed her also cos it seemed she was soooo angry but i appeared nonchalant and aloof when she scolded me.can't help it la. how did she want me to react? cry & go down on my knees to beg for forgiveness? siao ah. oh, she reali loks like a pig. if onli i can roast her, she'd be a yummy roasted suckling pig.

will be graduating from cjc band in mid august. seems like a deja vu. am suppose to graduate LAST YEAR. sigh..let's not bring that up. part of me wanna leave. but part of me won't mind playing in the band. i rmb how negatively i thought abt staying in band last year cos i was rather distant from my juniors. but now i reali enjoy band pracs cos of these ppl.

am gona take a good break this weekend. next week gota start mugging alreadi. i was thinkin abt wad i wana do next year, abt how i wana feel on the day i collect my A level results. there are only 2 possiblities. it's either i cry cos i passed & did extremely well, or i screwed it up. i'd choose the former. i guess it's important to think of the consequences before proceeding wad i wana do with my life. who doesn't want to achieve success. ok. enough crapping. there's onli so much i can say. but the end results depends on myself.

i need four things right now. motivation. strength. self-discipline. optimism.