was readin maisie's blog & realized how much i miss her.
whenever i think abt her,
ive got in urge to cry.
& i feel this emptiness in my heart.
& then i tink of sch & how much better it wld be with her ard.
she posted the counting crows song from the shrek2 soundtrack
& it kept playing & playing & playing.
like the song.

i feel so irritated with myself.
i feel like a pest.
a parasite.
if onli i can detach myself away from this need.
i wana prove myself right i can be independent.