augh.
black nail polish stains my fingernails.
it's so gross.
seems as if i haven't washed my hands in 10 days.
attempted to cover up with pastel purple.
bad choice too.

yes.
after much pondering,
i AM suffering from another bout of pms.
& ppl around me suffers too.
it's just once in a month i feel extra depressed
& start to question more abt my alreadi pathetic life.
that's all.
i wana rant & whine & complain all day abt it.
i wana be exceptionally petty & difficult.
i wana be bratty & arrogant.
but you shut me off.
was abt the times i listened to all yr crap
without complaining at all?
then wad are you for anyway?
it's not fair.
ok.
maybe now im just being selfish.
it's so difficult to try to please everyone around me.
seems like im the one compromising, giving in most of the time.
sometimes i feel taken for granted.
& when there are times i just wana put MYSELF as 1st priority,
i get shot down.
dead.

fuck off.
leave me alone.
for now.
apologize for this bratty behaviour of mine.
ive no gd excuse to behave this way.