great expectations

everywhere i am
wadever i do.
ppl expect somethin from me.
somethin which is to their expectations.
i feel so drained.
i'm tired of pleasing everyone.
maybe i haven't tried hard enough.
the worst thing is to know ive tried,
but im not being appreciated for my efforts,
or not living up to expectations.
wad am i to do..
im not perfect.
can't there be allowances made for mistakes?
even if ive always made mistakes,
can't i be given another chance?
am i doomed to failure?
to disappoint?

i duno la.
feel like crap now.
im sorry for always disappointing you.
im sorry i disappointed you.

im skipping hist remedial tmr.
predict i'd be ill.
but i'll stil complete the essay anyway.

feel like puking.
sour bile rose up my throat
but i forced it down again.
yuck.
must be the waffles just now.
and all that anger.
shouldn't haf met him.
bleah.