still sore

i absolutely hate being ill.
constantly coughing the whole damn day.
and my throat's still hurting with 2 ulcers.
i realli realli feel like dying.
yes.it's become too unbearable.
i'm sorry for my attitude today..
was damn moody..
felt worst during the last period when i realized i know no shit about DRV.
and there's a test on it this saturday.
maybe i'm being punished for somethin bad i did.
time for some reflection again.

but not tonight.
gota rush GP homework.
mr T is crazy..
he wana see thirty-one news articles complete with a summary & 10 vocabulary words for each.
by tomorrow.
gosh.
if onli i've done it over the past month.
but no.
i didn't.
same old story.same old habit.
jus nvr learn my lesson.
how/when will i ever learn.
i jus keep disappointing myself & others around me.

felt exceptionally strange today.
some feelings forced to creep out of me.
feelings which i kept hidden & buried these past few months.
all in a short span of 45min.
dammit.
how i wish it nvr haf happened in the 1st place.
if onli i was a lil wiser & less impulsive.