headless chicken

one of those gloomy days again.
weather kinda makes it worst.
nothin much up today.
makes me sit down quietly to ponder & reflect.
but i'm left even more confused & lost.
this journey seems neverending & tedious.
i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel yet.
i duno where i'm heading to,
duno where this path leads me.
time jus passes so quickly & nothin much is accomplished.
jus wad am i destined to be, to do ?
but i know ultimately the journey's more valuable than it's destination.
cos that's where u learn from mistakes, abt other ppl, abt yourself.
a crazy ride of self discovery.
so far all i've been thru has led me here.
but it doesn't look/feel good.
how to make this slightly better?
how i wish i can jus abandon this trip & jus sit down to rest forever.
but i can't.
i want to know wad happens in the end.
it's the process of reachin the destination which scares me the most.

crap.
jus found 2 booklets of catholic welfare tickets.
nothin's sold yet.
tink i'd buy them all in the end.

fun.
my sister's gona haf a birthday party this year.
i can onli remember one birthday party in my whole life.
tink i was jus teeny weeny 4 years old then.
memories of it kinda fuzzy.
but i'd stil rmb the huge birthday cake.*drools

stupid bird flu.
now my grandma refuses to buy any chicken.
gona get sick of fish & pork.
wonder when's it gona hit singapore.
u'd never know man.