round & round the roses

mum kept bugging me to find a job.
and insists i call up auntie anne's to confirm i wana work there.
finally gave in reluctanly and called up.
supposed to go for an interview this aftnoon at 4 but ive got band practice from 3 to 6.
augh.
shld i skip practice n go for the interview?
or the other way round?
this sucks.
hate makin choices.

i finally understand how my grandma feels when she complains of "a dull aching in her heart" (translated from cantonese to english)
she's always upset over her problematic son (my problematic uncle).
was extremely depressed last nite.
i wanted to cry.
i sobbed.but there were no tears.
horrible feeling.

can't wait for the day to end.

i miss u.
i don't wana lose u, even as a fren.
u were so impt to me.
u are so impt to me.