revelations

i'm feeling better alreadi.
seems like the flu's onli full-blown at nite.
was pretty much alright the whole of yesterday,
but when i went to sleep all tt nose blowing started again.
hate being sick.
i can't breathe properly, can't swallow, can't taste & smell.
& i feel pathetic.
i didn't let mum know i am ill.if not she'll fuss over me & forbid me to go out.
i know she has good intentions.
but jus wana spare all tt trouble.

sometimes in times like tt when i feel so vulnerable/weak/small i wonder who realli cares besides tt great guy up there.
who'll always be there to offer help/ask abt my condition/bug me to take care & drink lots of water?
i figured i've onli got myself to depend on.
it's a harsh world.
everyone's preoccupied with their own lives, who will willingly spare time fer a sickly person like me?
esp when u yearn fer tt particular someone to know, hoping to get a call/sms which wld certainly drive the flu away even fer tt few secs.

had fun last evening.
i thought it wld be a big grp outing but onli leeting tiff & luther turned up.
bought matching winter cap & gloves fer kenny.
hope he likes it.
was supposed to meet up with van charma daph aft dinner but leeting lost her wallet at suntec so we stayed a lil longer searchin fer it.
kuite true when ppl always say when u r lookin high & low fer somethin precious,u didn't realise it's onli within yr reach.
cos we were trying to search leeting's bag again if it was realli in there & all this while we were jus standing near the info counter.
in the end decided to jus report to the info counter & damn lucky someone found the wallet & left it at the info counter.

a shocking revelation by luther last nite.
left me even more confused & frustrated.