let loose n unwind

okay.
ive made up my mind.
no more brooding over it.
it was my choice.
so i'll stick to it.
felt kuite stupid fer askin a stupid question.
yep.

woke up this mornin feelin damn blardy fat.
i mean not tt i don't know tt.
but it's like it suddenly dawn on me tt my hips are gettin bigger.
prolly cos of all the lazing around.
and all that eating.
So.was extremely determined to, well, keep fit.
went for a jog.haha.

my poor mummy's ill.
some drug allergy.
she had fever yesterday n some dumb doc KNEW she's allergic but still prescribed some shit fer her.
so now her eye's swollen.
like her eyelids are enlarged n damn puffy.
well, least i'm around to look aft her.

meetin charma fer lunch.
but it's raining!!!
stupid weather.
i realised i haven't been pondering much.
as in i haven't been askin questions abt why things happen this way,why is this like that n not like those,
haven't been feelin dat miserable lately.
well,jus damn lazy to bother alreadi.
like give up alreadi.
not in the negative sense but rather wadever will be, will be.

i can't wait for christmas.
i love love love christmas.
always get this warm , fuzzy feeling whenever the shoppin centres start playin all those christmas carols, plus all those decorations.
feel a sense of contentment.
like the year's drawing to an end.
wadeva shit there was this year doesn't matter anymore cos there's the new year to look forward to.