dazed

oral presentation was alright..
as in i wasn't as nervous as i thought i wld be.
but well,it IS a DRY RUN afterall plus dear miss ang was the assessor for my grp & most of the audience were my classmates.

yes.i slept during chinese lesson again
i'm hopeless.
even lao shi's exasperated at me.tink he gave up hope on me alreadi.

aft sch went to sophie's place to chill cos i didn't wana go home too early as there was nothin to do..
was tryin to help her solve her modem problem..stupid modem jus doesn't work..and we tried calling for technical help but the guy on the other line was an arsehole..
her mum was kind enough to prepare dinner for me too..couldn't decline..so ate there..

hohum..i'm damn bored..as usual..
i shld go for some plastic surgery..to gif myself a happier & more approachable face..
however someone commented today tt ive got a _______face.(*winks at maisie)..
hurhur..i was rather flattered.
but then again..tt person might be bullshitting..

the more i hide/avoid/escape
the more it haunts me.

an email took me by surprise & sent my heartbeat goin thrice as fast.
i sort of expected it.
wad am i to do.
am i hesitating?
is there anythin holding me back? technically, NO.
but.there's still the element of uncertainty with the other aspect.
blabbering nonsense alreadi.
now i'm confused and at a lost of wad to do more than ever.