brokedown again last night.
couldn't take it anymore.
mum was shocked to see me cry.
was doin the bismarck essay outline & realised i know no shit abt him.
so spent almost the whole night readin, tryin to understand his policies & other crap.
was 11 plus alreadi & i haven't even started on the outline.
(shouldn't have watched tv!! i'm sucha sloth..laziness will destruct me)
was contemplating whether to go to sch the next day then copy from my frens, so that i can study on french rev.
but then i don't believe in copying work/tests..
dilemma.
on 1 hand i wanted to study, on the other, i wana do the outline myself.
some1 said, in life, sometimes gota do such things (such as copyin) to save yr own ass & survive in this society.
rigidity & principles won't get u nowhere.
it's true i guess.
but it's so hard to push aside wad i belief in.
anyway, decided to study..therefore outline not done..
and i skipped sch today..
was coughin badly, almost died.seriously.

anyway, i'm almost done with french rev.(yay!)
then there's ANOTHER outline due tmr..

*when will all this crap end